156 days until ....
My head is full of questions.
Questions which I will never ask.
I don't want the answers.
This is a completely idiotic stance of course. Particularly considering that the answers I make up on my own are far worse than the real ones could ever be.
One would think that being aware of a problem would make one more able to correct it.
The more aware of it I become, the more likely it is that I will run away and join the circus.